+::Doll Heaven::+

Disney

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 01:37:37 GMT

Okay, I am EXTREMELY desperate to buy one of the following Disney art books:

http://www.amazon.com/Disneys-How-Draw-Little-Mermaid/dp/156010161X/ref=pd_sim_b_1/102-1328451-1362538?ie=UTF8&qid=1188437571&sr=1-11

http://www.amazon.com/Disneys-How-Draw-Beauty-Beast/dp/1560101628/ref=pd_sim_b_2/102-1328451-1362538?ie=UTF8&qid=1188437571&sr=1-11

http://www.amazon.com/Disneys-How-Draw-Aladdin-DC04/dp/1560101636/ref=sr_1_11/102-1328451-1362538?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1188437571&sr=1-11

I used to have them when I was a kid, but my mom gave my copies away, even though I begged her not to.

I AM WILLING TO TAKE MONEY FROM MY COLLEGE ACCOUNT. I really need these for my animation class that I'm taking this year! Please help guys!

Intangible Eternia: Update Two

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 05:09:19 GMT

16,580 / 100,000
(16.6%)

Volume One of my Book is for sale!

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 20:34:03 GMT

So I printed the first volume of my Photo book of my trip to Japan!

http://www.lulu.com/content/1135253

Half of my funds goes to my college savings. Because I only have $500, and my parents flat out refuse to pay for ANYTHING. Lyke oh gawd help. ;___;

The other half goes to charity. I was going to keep all of the proceeds for awhile, but I wanna help other people too. ;_; Some don't even have the $500! AHHH.

PLEASE ENJOY/PIMP. I REALLY NEED THIS. XD;

Japan Book: Intangible Eternia

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 05:02:44 GMT

Here's the progress for my novel!

10,233 / 100,000
(10.2%)

Pimping my Prints

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 15:22:15 GMT

So, in an attempt to get some money prepared for college which I will be paying for as long as I live and even afterwards I'll be paying, I've decided to sell prints of some of my Japan pictures.

My deviantART account.

I'll be adding more when I get home from the beach. Tomorrow's my last day, and I'll be home later that day, soooo. Yeah.

Help a poor senior prepare for college. XD

If anyone is curious, I've applied for the following schools:

-Bloomsburg
-Sarah Lawrence
-Pittsburgh Technical Institute
-Flagler
-Penn State

8D

My Novel Status

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 03:28:28 GMT

3,983 / 80,000
(4.0%)

I'm done with the pictures! YAY!

LOLcats, Art, and Sense and Sensibility

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 17:27:28 GMT

Your Score: Cheezburger cat

65% Affectionate, 54% Excitable, 68% Hungry

Sure, you deserve one. You helped popularized lolcats from a running gag to an online sensation. Now mainstream media writes asinine columns on this 'phenomenon', students write theses on the topic, programming languages adopt the grammar, and losers write tests about them on dating sites. Now take your cheezburger and never touch the internets again.

To see all possible results, checka dis.

Link: The Which Lolcat Are You? Test written by GumOtaku on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

In other news, I want to draw, but I don't know what. And I'm trying to change my style to that of a more Disney-esque nature, but I can't find any good tutorials. Can anyone help with that?

Also, I finally watched Sense and Sensibility. I cried. Bobby was Willoughby, and Anderson was my Colonel Brandon. Which is good, because in the movie, I liked Colonel Brandon a whole lot more than Willoughby. :) Though Alan Rickman did help. Honestly, WHY MUST HE BE SO DAMN ATTRACTIVE!?

x) Happy Meme

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 08:44:31 GMT

This made my dayyyyy. <3

Harry Potter Ranting!

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 04:27:32 GMT

Don't worry, all spoilers will be placed under cuts! <3 I hate people that ruin books like this. D= IT MAKES ME A SAD DUCKIE. DX

Well, I WAS going to go to the Hallow's Ball. Here's what happened:

On Friday, my boyfriend asked me to come to NY to see him. I said okay, and I went up on the train. Now, this was my first time alone on a train for this um, far of a journey I guess. And I lack a cellphone, too. Well, I made a small mistake at first. I accidentally got off-peak tickets instead of peak ones, so I had to pay a bit of an extra fee. I was cranky since I had not had breakfast, but I gave the conductor some more money.

Well, I got to NY Penn Station. And guess who wasn't at my track?

Basically, I spent five hours huddled and frightened in various corners of the station, since the thing is so fucking big and confusing. I used the last of my change to call him, and it turns out that he had looked for me for about three hours, and had gone home. He came rushing to get me when I called, and just as I was about to cry, he appears before me, sweating and with eyes bulging in both terror and happiness, and he hugged me tightly. Granted, he smelled terrible from the sweltering heat, but I didn't really care. I was so scared, and I was happy that he had found me.

By this time, it was about one in the afternoon, and there wouldn't be enough time to go to his home and then come back to the station to drop me off to get home.

However. I went to his house, and called my parents, and my mother asked me if I would like to sleep over at his house. Now, at the time, I honestly wasn't in a rush to go on a train in the near future. But, I realized, I would be missing the Hallow's Ball. I looked at my boyfriend, then back at the phone, and sighed.

I agreed to sleep over.

He was really happy that I had chosen him over Harry Potter. Yes, that's how addicted I am. Honestly, I think I had more fun at my boyfriend's then at the midnight party.

The next morning, we slept in and missed two trains. Oops. Luckily, his mother had called my parents, and everything was okay.

I waited and got my book at about 12:30pm. I read about 12 pages, though, and my ex-fiance a.k.a. best friend, calls.

"Want to hang out!?"

Despite wanting to just relax and read, I said okay.

So, I didn't get to start Harry until 3pm yesterday.

I finished at 10pm. It was a new record! And, this is how much of a dork I am. I cheered because it was seven hours, and it was the seventh book! (NERDDDDDDDDD).

Okay, NOW I shall rant about the book!

First of all. The deaths.

I've made a list of some of the deaths, at least.

Hedwig : Avada Kedavra, and then the body was blown up by Harry.
Mad-Eye : Avada Kedavra by a Death Eater, or a fall from the broom.
Wormtail : Murdered by the silver hand. Hmm, would this be suicide or homicide?
Fred : Random Death Eater. NOOOOOOO. I LOVERZ HIM.
Lupin: I cried the hardest over his death. He was my favorite character in the entire series. And JK never even revealed who murdered him, and how!
Tonks : Same way of death as Lupin. Honestly, I didn't really like her, and I didn't want her to marry Lupin, but what will be will be, I guess.
Snape : Nagini/Voldemort. As my second favorite character, he also earned many tears. At least now I can publish my Snape/Lily fanfiction without shame
Colin : Poor Colin. D:

Well, my mom and I grieved for Hedwig together, as she and I are owl lovers. I wanted to make a little cake in the shape of Hedwig, but I'm not skilled enough. D= And we didn't have the ingredients...

Lupin and Snape were the hardest for me, though. I loved those two so much, so knowing that they're dead really hurts me.

But, um, there are some things I'm still a tad confused about.

JK said that someone would use magic late in life. It says so on Mugglenet. D:

'JKR has said "There is a character who does manage, in desperate circumstances, to do magic quite late in life, but that is very rare..."'

Anyone else confused about that, or am I just stupid?

How will they sort people into houses if the Sorting Hat was lit on fire? Was it not completely burned away, or do they have an extra?

The ending was SUCH a cop out, but I'm not sure if I mind in this case. Although honestly, I despise Harry/Ginny. Almost as much as Ron/Hermione.

And well, won't the Snape/Harry fans be multiplying? Oi.

Although I'm glad that my Snape/Lily fanfictions won't go to waste. I had thought since book five that he loved her, but I'm glad that this proved my point. =D

Um, there was something else, but I forget. Oh well!

Soooooooo yeah! I'm now suffering from post-Potter depression. D=

WIGS AHHHH

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 11:23:15 GMT

Kairi has no wearable wig. ;o; SHE IS BALD AGAIN NOOOOOOOOOOOO. *CRIES IN AGONY*

Apparently, while I was in Japan, my cat sneaked (someone please make snuck a word already!) into my room, and DESTROYED my Sora!fur wig that I had. ;o; And then I accidentally butchered two of her wigs, and then one got destroyed when I tried to boil it. T_________T ARGH. I AM NEVER GOING TO ATTEMPT TO STYLE A WIG AGAIN.

I have a good chunk of money left over from my Japan trip. $450. o______________________o I don't know if I should save that towards my new doll, or splurge on my current dolls. DX

Here's what I THINK I'm going to do (though this is far from final):

Get Ryoki a new faceup from Sera
Buy Kairi a new wig
Save towards Malina's body?
Save towards my next doll?
Commission an outfit for Kairi/my next doll

We'll see. +_________________+

Um, a favor? >w<;;;

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 09:44:27 GMT

I was wondering if some people would be willing to put some creative criticism into my writing?

It's for my school graduation project, and I'm writing a memoir about my trip to Japan. Which, by the way, I leave for tomorrow.

Um, it's just the tip of the prologue, and much of it was written during strange hours of the day (like 5am).

Thanks in advance? XD I know it's dumb to ask, but can we keep any levels of disgusted sarcasm down? Thank youuuuuuuu. XD

It’s an unfamiliar and foreign idea for me to reminisce back to times past and try to write down and clearly convey my full thoughts and feelings of those times. Being so open and free with the world, let alone myself, is a strange concept, especially since I am so used to locking away my feelings to the confines of my mind. It’s almost like watching a bird in a cage; my memories flutter endlessly in a cage, unable to escape and see the rest of the world. But even now, despite the feelings of suspicion that have carved a comfortable little niche within my heart, I can only watch helplessly as my fingers fly. The clicking of the keys continues to remind me that I am now typing the words that I’ve wished to throw at the world. For this is the time in which I explain my existence in this world. Or, at the very least, explain the sliver of my childhood that has lasted throughout my life, and probably will forever. Granted, I can’t read the future, but I figure that since it has lived with me for this long, it can last another ten years, at least.

If memory serves correctly, and I hope it does, since I’m far too young for the monotony of senility, I first experienced the sweet taste of Japan when I was in the metallic jungle known as the town of Philadelphia. I was just a little girl, falling into the stereotype of the buck-toothed, big-eyed child, full of innocence and naivety. I was wandering through the labyrinth of a bookstore with my father. I cannot remember why he and I were in Philadelphia in the first place, or if there was anyone else with us. The only thing that clearly stands out in my mind is that when we were in the store, pulling off random books from the shelves and examining the covers, I pulled out a specific book that began the snowball effect for my love of the Japanese culture.

Now, dear reader, you may be wondering which book it was, exactly, that I purchased. What book could have possibly inspired a girl to go out and learn so much about a country and the culture?

Well, it was the first volume of the Sailor Moon manga.

Sailor Moon? Manga? What are those things?

Well, Sailor Moon was an anime. Anime is a form of animation (Japanese animation) that is of a more mature standard than that of the basic American cartoon. The stories that are told with this medium tend to be of a more adult level (though that is not to say that the occasional child one is not released) and more detail usually adorns each frame (whether it is made with computers or by hand).

Many animes begin life in a graphic novel form more commonly referred to as manga. Recently, the books have more often been printed in the right to left format instead of the American left to right. The pages tend to be adorned with beautifully detailed drawings and witty dialogue.

Specifically, Sailor Moon was the story of a young girl who gained the magical powers of the Moon Kingdom in order to fight evil. It was a highly commercialized story, and believe me; I’m giving the short end of the story. It gets far more complicated as you delve in. The point is, that despite the elaborate and unrealistic story, it still had parts with which I could connect with, and it was a portal away from the gruesomeness of the real world. At the time, my father was suffering from lymphoma, so I would use books of any sort in order to get away from the trauma.

Throughout a large portion of my childhood, our lovely abode lacked a computer (or, frankly, anything of the new technological persuasion), so I would use the school computer during recess in order to look for anything Sailor Moon related on the internet. Many times, fellow classmates would embarrass me and mock me for doing this, but I had nowhere else to go when it came to using a computer. So I was stuck in school. Don’t worry, we have a computer now. In fact, we have a computer, and I have my own laptop!

But, back onto the topic of Sailor Moon. Through my research, I eventually discovered that the show was created in Japan, and my curiosity peaked. Millions of questions raced through my brain, and I had an unquenchable thirst to learn more about this illustrious country. What were the people like? What was the popular music of the time? What about the popular fashion? And how did they celebrate Christmas?

In order to attempt to relate myself to the culture, I began to slowly immerse myself within it. My iPod was quickly filled with the music of popular pop artists from Japan. My friends would ask what the point of listening to it was if I could not understand the language. To that, all I would say is, “It’s fun. Let’s enjoy something for the sake of it, for once.”

When I entered a bookstore again, years later, I was shocked to discover that manga had been given its own section, and that with each passing week, more and more titles spread, filling each shelf to the brim.

As I grew older, I became more manipulative in my own way. I would beg my mother to purchase more anime DVDs. However, if I was lucky enough to get her addicted to a series, she would feel compelled to buy more because she would want to know the ending of the story as well. True, the intentions started were horrible, but it ended up nicely, since we would spend our days together laughing and crying over a story.

Lots of money was spent on English-Japanese dictionaries, how-to-learn-Japanese books, CDs, and so on. True, I was never able to learn the language on my own, but at least I had tried, and that’s more than a lot of people can say in their lives.

At the beginning of summer before my sophomore year of high school, my best friend Kristin and I decided that we would start an anime club. She designed a website, I helped organize, and we prepared a speech for the school official in charge of extracurricular activities. So, within the first week back, she and I dragged ourselves to the official. Now, perhaps I am a bit biased, but I never liked her. She was always a bit abrupt and rude, and never seemed to understand tact. She let us go on and on for approximately ten to fifteen minutes before shooting down our idea, saying that there were already too many clubs. Well, if she knew that, then why would she agree to meet us in the first place if we already had no chance? Hmmm. So, thinking ahead, we decided to go around school regulations and being an “underground” anime club. Kristin asked one of her teachers to let us use her classroom, and we secretly told other students, making sure no papers were handed out and that the information was passed by word of mouth only. Eventually, we were successful in uniting the people who secretly (or not so secretly) enjoyed the intricate plots of various animes, and we let these people hide in our forbidden utopia of almost hedonistic pleasures.

Throughout these years, I had also been developing my own drawing style based around that of the popular manga artists. In high school, I had taken advanced art classes, and even now, I hope to someday become a famous American manga artist. Many, unfortunately, still do not consider manga to be manga if it is drawn by an American. However, this is just an old fashioned, close minded, even racist idea.

Help with organization would be really nice? 8D Everyone always tells me it's a weak point of mine, and boy do I know it! XD

Again, thank ya kindly! <3

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 20:43:25 GMT

So no one showed interest in the doll meet. DAMN. DX

Also, my dad is out of commission for driving me places due to the fact that his back is fucked up again. I don't understand why old people become OBSESSED with gardening and yard work. >_< I keep telling him that my friend is willing to do it for FREE (since they don't trust me to do it correctly) but he INSISTS on stressing his body with all of this work.

So now I'm stuck in the house for who knows how long. I wonder how I'll get to the airport on Friday? I have to be there by like, 4:30am. DAMN. And I was supposed to go to New York today to hang out with my boyfriend, who I haven't seen in awhile (though we talk on the phone everyday, but dad's getting mad at the phone bill. WELL.)

I'm getting cabin fever. :B I haven't been out of the house since last Monday. ARGHHHHH. There's no where to go to here within walking distance. We have hardware stores, and pizza places. That's it. Literally. And all of my friends are on vacation or at work or can't drive either.

And it's not like I don't want to drive, it's that I'm not allowed. Or else I would. I'd go to Borders EVERYDAY. And then Starbucks. Yes, I'm a yuppie at heart. <3

The Doll Tea Party!

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 15:57:30 GMT

So, I've decided to try to start a mini doll meet at my house. I've been feeling really depressed and alone, and a lot of my friends are away. So I'm getting cabin fever already, and I'm really lonely. So, what better way to try to cure this than with a mini doll meet!? XD

Here are the details:

The day will either be Saturday, June 23, or Sunday, June 24.
For times, I was thinking 11am-5pm.
The location will be my house, obviously. If anyone in Pennsylvania/New York/New Jersey is interested, I will give directions.
My parents will also be here. XD My mom kinda likes dolls, she thinks they're cute. And my dad thinks they're creepy, so, it's okay to carry a headless doll around. >3
I will be making cupcakes and cookies and tea! 8D If anyone is like, a vegan or something, please tell me so I can make you something else. :3
I was also planning on maybe watching a movie or two? If you guys give me some ideas of what you'd want to watch, then I could get everything together.
You guys would need your own transportation home. We could drive some people to the Trenton train station if we needed to, and the train station to Philly is literally two blocks from my house. So you could just walk to that. :3

If anyone else thinks I need to add details, please tell me!

Also, should I put this up on DoA? XD Or should I leave it to the privacy of my LJ?

Let's have fun! 8D

I hope there's some interest in this. ;w; I need to talk to people. XD *IS A HERMIT* I'm trying to make new friends, sooooo. XD

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 23:50:46 GMT

In case anyone was wondering who Kairi likes.

http://www.denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?t=144563

:D

Uh Oh Kairi. D:

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 01:31:02 GMT

Kairi has a crush.

And it's unrequited.

Oh goodness. D:

I'm making a story in a few minutes.

Uh ohhhhh. D:

Character Fun

Tue, 29 May 2007 01:11:09 GMT

I decided that I'd like to share a little bit of information about my future characters.

Ayame Nakamura is a nasty, rich, spoiled brat. He dyed his hair bright blond, and likes to keep is spiked. He smokes cigarettes, drinks alcohols, and flirts with every woman that moves. He used to be best friends with Ryoki, until they got over a disagreement concerning their common love interest, Mizuki. Before they met her, though, Ryoki and Ayame used to be the school troublemakers.
Ayame will be a Delf El.

Nietzsche is an American "beatnik". He's extremely tall, and has long black hair. His parents named him after Friedrich Nietzsche, and he's a laid back guy. He always seems to have a relaxed smile on his face. He actually met Mizuki when she traveled to America in order to find Ryoki. He's in love with her, so he tries to push her together with Ryoki so that she can be truly happy.
Nietzsche will be a Dollshe Hound.

Mizuki Hinao is a spunky young girl from Hokkaido. She's generally shy at first, but quickly opens up. She's very small, but has a huge heart! She moved from Hokkaido to Tokyo when her parents died, and she was forced to live with her abusive aunt. She actually got into a big fight just before Ryoki left for America.
Mizuki will be a Volks Kun.

Sat, 19 May 2007 20:11:57 GMT

Inspired by nezumitoo.

Finish Kairi's coat.
Save for Ryoki's faceup.
Save for someone to fix Ryoki's broken leg.
Buy lace.
Pattern, cut out, sew Ryoki a gothic lolita outfit.
Pattern, cut out, sew Kairi a fancy dress?
Buy snaps.
Buy zippers.
~~Buy more white thread.~~
BUY SOME EYES!

Speaking of eyes!

Does ANYONE have a cheap pair of acrylics they could throw in my direction? Like, for free? XD One of my dolls is eyeless, and um, it's creeping me out kinda. XD She's a villain, so I guess she should be creepy, but, STILL.

Aaron

Mon, 14 May 2007 04:57:01 GMT

My friend Aaron died. I'm completely shocked. He was a big guy on the football team, engaged, and he had a good life planned out.

Here's what his girlfriend said about his death:

"On Friday, as he was dialing my #, he collapsed around 4pm from his brain bleeding, meaning he had a second aneurysm that burst. His family called the ambulance, and he was rushed to St. Mary's, where he had surgery, but the doctors shifted his brain too much during the surgery that it disconnected from his brain stem. Then, he was helicoptered to Jefferson in Philadelphia, where they did one test for vital signs around 9pm, and had to wait another 12 hours to do the second test. Then I got there around 11:30, after receiving a phone call while I was at a friend's Sweet 16 party. I found out around 10:30, and rushed over there. So his family and I spent the night at the hospital, trying to sleep in the visitor's lounge, but I couldn't sleep and spent the night next to him, holding his hand. On Saturday, he was supposed to have his second test between 9 and 11, but the doctors didn't test him until 4:30, when he was pronounced brain dead."

I just found out about two hours ago.

First, I'm shocked by the doctors, and how this seems almost unprofessional. I understand that, God forbid, there are other people, but, this kid was DYING.

And now he's gone.

I called Anderson (my new boyfriend) and even though it's late, he still was there to talk to me. It was really nice.

Oh yes. Updates in my life.

a. My fiance left me this week, even though I had told him I chose him. So, now I am with the other boy.

b. I am being harassed by a majority of the student body because my ex-fiance is telling them that I cheated AND left him. So now I am being literally pelted with rocks and being called a bitch. Hurray.

c. Aaron died.

I need a vacation. I know I shouldn't complain, since I have a good life and stuff, but, just, wow.

Is it sad that I really want Meevs (a.k.a. my Miyavi doll) here now? I really just want to hug him. Anderson is hinting that he might buy him for me. I'm trying to convince him not to. But, it's just, dolls calm me down, and, Miyavi would be a great person to hug right now. And since I can't hug the real person, then, a doll might be the next best thing.

I'm such a nerd.

Kate's Death and Daemon

Tue, 08 May 2007 01:47:15 GMT

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Why does the Jew have to be missed by the oven? D: I just found that sooooo.... I dunno.

I Picked

Sun, 06 May 2007 18:29:18 GMT

Pretty much everyone is mad at which guy I picked. Except for me. And him, obviously. However, I followed the advice that most of my friends gave me. They told me to actually care about myself for once. Normally I don't, because I consider other people to be more important than myself. But, I actually prioritized my own happiness above everything else. It feels kinda good. I mean, I still feel guilty, and a little selfish, but I shouldn't have to listen to anyone else about my own romantic life.

:3

I love how I am mean enough to not say if it was A or B.

Love

Wed, 02 May 2007 03:09:36 GMT

I must confess, I never thought I'd be one of those people who would post a real problem on their LiveJournal for strangers to view, or to ask for input on. I think it is only because I am desperate that I'm doing it. Not to say that people who do this are desperate, or losers, or anything negative. I just never thought it would be for me personally, or help me. But, I believe I need unbiased opinions and help.

I am in love with two boys.

Dilemma.

We shall call them A and B.

First, A.

I am engaged to A. I have known him for a longer period of time than B. A lives right down the street from me, and can be here within a few minutes if I need him, whether it be for an emotional reason, or if I just want to have a fun day. We have already tried to break up, but it didn't exactly work. He was so upset, and I was so lonely, that we just reconnected. However, A is very suicidal and I have to wonder if I'm a strong enough person (or patient enough) to help him. Also, he is a much better kisser than B. However, A disses B and says horrible things about him that just aren't true, because he's angry.

Now, B.

B lives in New York, which, while not too far from PA, causes a bit of a problem. We talk everyday, but I can only see him on the weekends. I am more sexually attracted to B than I am to A. And B seems to be more understanding of my feelings. B is more confident than A, so he is a lot happier with life in general, while A is extremely hard to please. However, he is VERY cuddly with his female friends, which bothers me because I'm jealous. I've been cheated on a LOT, and I'm very paranoid about it happening again, since I feel that his friends are much more attractive than I am. And, B doesn't badmouth A.

What the hell can I do? Somebody's heart is going to be broken. I'm going to be hurt too because I will still lose a love. Somebody please help. I'm so stressed out from this, and A is pressuring me to choose, and while I can't blame him, it still hurts. I can't eat well, I can't sleep, and my heart just always hurts now. My mind is so foggy. Please. Help.

S.A.T. stuff again and The Love Square

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 14:37:00 GMT

1750. I guess that's good for not reviewing anything or attending one of those ridiculously priced S.A.T. study classes. I did better than my friend who's spending over $2000 on them. :P It boosted my confidence a little I guess.

I am now in the middle of a love square. Seriously, this is another piece of evidence to add to my list about why my life should be made into a manga. Mmkay, ready?

EDIT: CURRENT STATUS OF THIS SITUATION IS AT THE END OF THE ENTRY AND BOLDED.

Fiance loves me and I love him. Simple enough. We'll call him A.

Ex-boyfriend of both me and my best friend is still in love with me. I have no feelings for him at all. I don't like him very much, actually. Okay, getting a little complicated. We'll call him B.

NEW ex-boyfriend of my best friend is in love with me (hence why they broke up, apparently) and I am sexually attracted to him. Also, he lives a state over (in NY). We'll call him C.

Okay, NOW it's kinda complicated.

No guys EVER really liked me cause of, well, the whole ugly thing going on, so having three guys be in love with me is flattering, but scary.

Now, A and B dislike each other a LOT. A LOT A LOT. Meanwhile, A and B are both friends with C, and neither A or B knows that C likes me.

Also, C is my best guy friend. And either I'm visiting him this week with A, or he's coming to visit me. Well. Okay.

Why is life so confusing? D: Naturally nothing will happen with B, so the only one to worry about is C. Because I'm so much more attracted to him than A in the physical areas of life, and again, he's my best guy friend.

Head, meet desk. *HEADDESK*

A and I are going through a trial separation. Meanwhile, C and I shall try dating. If it does not work out, A and I will be married as planned. However, anything could happen.

B is left alone. :B

S.A.T. Scores

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 03:31:20 GMT

I'm getting them tomorrow. I'LL STILL BE IN SCHOOL. SON OF A BITCH. DX I could go check them during my study hall if I can like, get a teacher's permission or get a teacher to come with me. Hmmm. Maybe I'll ask my social studies teacher, since I see him before then.

I am freaking out so badly. I'm pretty much hyperventilating over here.

I'm really scared. I'm like, crying too, and I can't think straight. My friends are trying to calm me down. But, if I have to take them again, my parents said I have to pay. So, I'm really hoping here.

RAWR. ;___;

Riku and Sora? INPUT APPRECIATED!

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 10:21:29 GMT

Well, I've decided which two dolls are next. Kairi's just looked so lonely, so I finally decided to cave. I really want them now too. Ayame, I'm sorry. You'll have to wait and be my graduation present.

Now, um. For Riku and Sora. I want them both to be MNFs. Now, for Riku:

Should Riku be a MNF Ruth Special, or a MNF El Special? One or the other. I can't decide.

Should Sora be a MNF Shiwoo Special, or a MNF Ruth Special? Obviously, if Ruth is chosen for Riku, then I'll go with my original choice of Shiwoo.

Gackt Look-a-like

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 21:05:19 GMT

I adore my friend Mark.

He looks like Gackt.

I get to see his prettiness everyday. :3

The end.

(And no, this is not my fiance. I just felt like posting this.)

What Is Your HP Threesome? by elschan
Name
You Will Shag	Sirius Black and Severus Snape